23

It's been a while, yes?

I'm happy to report that I have been doing something new everyday, though I've opted not to post everything here and instead just enjoy the moments as they come. It's been one crazy, crazy summer. The highs and lows have got my head spinning in all directions, and I'm just appreciating this down time and using it to take it all in.

I'm 23 now. Twenty-three years. I'm a daughter, sister, friend, fiancee, employee, wingman, cousin, granddaughter, niece, acquaintance, colleague. I have to admit I'm not always good at being some, and sometimes even all of the above, all at once. Growing up is a flurry of joy and pain and confusion, and I think I can say I'm doing my best. We're all doing our best.

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Things I've learned this year:

1. Happiness is a choice, and also, a sort of lucky thing. Choose it; don't take it for granted.

2. Friends support each other and enjoy each other's company. That's all there is to it.

3. If you don't enjoy conversations with your partner the most, leave. Now.

4. People change. It doesn't mean they love you any less.

5. People leave, and yes, that does mean that they've found something they love a little more than you. It's just the way it is. Someday someone will leave something else for you. You probably will, too.

6. Bad luck is universal. Don't take it personally.

7. Airports are both the saddest and happiest places. Appreciate everyone who goes through them - they come out stronger.

8. When people love you, it doesn't give you the right to test them.

9. Breathe deep, then let it go. Sometimes it's all you can do.

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Last year, I said that the happiest times in my life are moments I spend with good company. That still holds true, but now I realize that one's happiness shouldn't depend on other people. I can be my own good company, too.